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Friday, October 15, 2004


Let me start writing about what eva happened on wednesday which is also her bdae. I was very sad that nitez as i got the answer from her le.. And i really dunno why this has happened to me lor. I really wished to asked her the reason why but i think i wun be good lor. If i did it this way, friendship might be gone too bah... So lets be friends for the moment. Maybe as time pass she will regret why last time reject me once and again. I will be there for you still when u have any problems. I will move on with life so dun worry. It take times to forget someone in the mind. Okie.. gtg le.. BrB..

Back from coffee session with yutin. Hmm.. i was late meeting her bcoz i went to bathe. sorry arh.. Then i told her everything and i felt a little better after confiding all the problems out. Felt a little relaxed. Then after chattting awhile, saw ming cai and weizheng. They met up at S11 too. wahahaha... Their 1st walk out. Then shortly more n more came. Their table became 4e1 gathering. then our table is 4e3 gathering. Hahaha.. But one thing that happened made me very dissapointed was that yutin smoked again.. Haix.. why do girls smoke.. I dun like girls whom smoke.. But she promised me that by the end of the year she will quit smoking... not even a stick. If you r reading it, please make ur promise. It would be better if the next time i meet her she dun smoke at all.. Okie. then gorilla went off and so did we.. Sent yutin to her house then walked back home. I relaxed and felt better after that le.. then after that huikeng msged me in msn... she told me something that make me sink in lower. that was she saw someone holding her hands on wednesdae(her bdae) Haiz... sibei sad sial.. i reaali dunno how to accept this truth. How arh..

She is the 1st girl tat i realli realli like alot lot..
She is the 1st girl tat i put in so much effort..
She is the 1st girl tat gave me so much confident into chasing her...
She is the 1st girl tat told me she like me and i like her too...
She is the 1st girl tat gave me mental breakdown...

I realli wanted her to be my 1st gf cos i realli realli like her.

How to make a girl accept a guy lehz?? Realli dunno why am i so unsuccessful in everything i do when it comes to love. Realli felt so hopeless in love. How to make a girl accept a guy?? Failed all the time. this is the 3rd time le lor.. argh... Why is this world so unfair ?? Why Why Why ??



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