Sunday, October 31, 2004
yesterdae meet alot of people sial... haha.. In the morning, so irritated. Meet so early in the morning to do that stupid project, ARhh... fuck up.. Then afternoon went to watch shark tale with zhiwei they all. nice show. Damn funny.. After the show, went for dinner at pizza hut lucky plaza. There was this girl who was quite cute and good looking. She's a staff at pizza hut. Haha.. Realli cute manz... Maybe next week go there eat again. wahaha... Then take the chance to get her number. hahahahahahahaha... Just Joking lah.. I not so desperate lah.. Then after dinner, went to meet yuan pin and terence. Had a chat at starbucks, then went off after that.
Today was supposed to go the walk with msl de. But then could not wake up. Haha.. sorry lah ziwei.. Keke.. Then afternoon went to meet them up for lunch and then went sheng shiong to buy biscuits and snacks.. Haha... tats all for the day bah.. lazy to write more.. Then one more thing, i discovered something.. She did not reply me yesterdae is becos she is nt in Singapore. :P
Monday, October 25, 2004
yesterdae went to sentosa with joanne and keng they all. Had alot of fun with them. They are all very friendly.. Too tired to write all things that happened. So i will briefly write wat happen. We settled down at sunset bay. We play frisbee and volleyball which were rented at the store there. Let me tok abit abt keng's friend. Wahaha.. All were quite pretty. Then there was this one girl whom made my day a little uneasy.. It was valerie. She look a little like Peiwen. haiz.. and this made me think of her. Thats the reason why i tried to take photo of her. to come back to compare and contrast. :P Maybe becos of their complexion and face shape bah.. Realli made me think of her lor.. We played till abt 1900 then went to wash up and then went off for dinner at harbour front. After dinner, went back le. But i went to bishan to catch a midnitez show. (Ladder 49) nice show. Love it manz.... Thats the very brief blog that i have.. gtg sleep le.. Booking tmr at 0830hrs. Gd nitez.. sweet dreams..
Oh ya.. After reading an email reply from my sec sch buddy, i think that i will juz like her deep in my heart until i realli found one that can replace her which will take time. So maybe who knows she will change her mind one day and will try to treasure all the things that i had done for her. Gd nitez.. realli gtg.
Sunday, October 17, 2004
What a boring weekend yesterdae. I was totally not in the mood. Its the first time i felt so bad. realli hope that this wun happen again lor.. Why does all this things happen lehz.. I realli dunno. Anyway, yesterdae went out my sq mates to bugis. I did not wanted to meet them de cos i was feeling so bored. One whole week see them liao weekend also see them. Buay sianz mehz.. But then sean called me and then asked me to go. So I took my time to go lor. Slowly Slowly go down. Then when i reached there they already left the temple liao. Haiz... DULAN. Luckily i saw them on the way lah.. If not i die liao lor. Then after tat went to spcc clubhouse to play billiard and pool.
After playing we went to bugis junction to wait for wei liang. When everyone was there, we set off for marina south. Then we started eating at around 730pm plus lor.. One very demoralising thing was all was with their gf and made me so sianz.. Then all kept asking me why i did not ask peiwen along. They all tot she was my gf. Haiz... made me even more sianz.. Haiyoz.. then after dinner we went to play a game of bowling. Wahaha... After that, i went off to selegie mr bean to meet up with greg, von , win and hl. We sat down and chit chat for awhile and then went to play pool. Went home after a few games. Thanks greg for ur ride.
As requested by yutin, this is the card that i made for her(pw). But she did not know how to treasure.
Birthday card for her.
Friday, October 15, 2004
Let me start writing about what eva happened on wednesday which is also her bdae. I was very sad that nitez as i got the answer from her le.. And i really dunno why this has happened to me lor. I really wished to asked her the reason why but i think i wun be good lor. If i did it this way, friendship might be gone too bah... So lets be friends for the moment. Maybe as time pass she will regret why last time reject me once and again. I will be there for you still when u have any problems. I will move on with life so dun worry. It take times to forget someone in the mind. Okie.. gtg le.. BrB..
Back from coffee session with yutin. Hmm.. i was late meeting her bcoz i went to bathe. sorry arh.. Then i told her everything and i felt a little better after confiding all the problems out. Felt a little relaxed. Then after chattting awhile, saw ming cai and weizheng. They met up at S11 too. wahahaha... Their 1st walk out. Then shortly more n more came. Their table became 4e1 gathering. then our table is 4e3 gathering. Hahaha.. But one thing that happened made me very dissapointed was that yutin smoked again.. Haix.. why do girls smoke.. I dun like girls whom smoke.. But she promised me that by the end of the year she will quit smoking... not even a stick. If you r reading it, please make ur promise. It would be better if the next time i meet her she dun smoke at all.. Okie. then gorilla went off and so did we.. Sent yutin to her house then walked back home. I relaxed and felt better after that le.. then after that huikeng msged me in msn... she told me something that make me sink in lower. that was she saw someone holding her hands on wednesdae(her bdae) Haiz... sibei sad sial.. i reaali dunno how to accept this truth. How arh..
She is the 1st girl tat i realli realli like alot lot..
She is the 1st girl tat i put in so much effort..
She is the 1st girl tat gave me so much confident into chasing her...
She is the 1st girl tat told me she like me and i like her too...
She is the 1st girl tat gave me mental breakdown...
I realli wanted her to be my 1st gf cos i realli realli like her.
How to make a girl accept a guy lehz?? Realli dunno why am i so unsuccessful in everything i do when it comes to love. Realli felt so hopeless in love. How to make a girl accept a guy?? Failed all the time. this is the 3rd time le lor.. argh... Why is this world so unfair ?? Why Why Why ??
Sunday, October 03, 2004
Just now read a nice piece of paragraph in friendster bulletin board posted by yunhui. I find it a very nice piece and also it very true. I will post it at the below for ur viewing... Let me tok abt the past one week. Haiz.. so sianz. i beginning to dislike some of my squad mates. But juz take it easy lor.. Some times I find them very influencing. I dunno why lehz.. I think i will be changing clique for the better. And also some of them always think that they are alwaes ritez. They juz think that they are alwaes ritez.. Cannot tahan. So sometimes I juz keep quiet lor. Wat to do. This was one of the case that happened. I believe many would agree with my view rather then their views. 1) For the chinese tradition. even is for happy occasion and odd is for sad occasion mah.. But they juz keep arguing the other way round. Saying they alwaes do it that way. So i juz let it be lor.. Dun care them. I think they wun be friends after NS lor... They will be juz like Hi.. Bye.. friends. Cos all like Shyt like tat.. All are ah beng and ah seng. Hai... Dissapointed with them. Dun tok abt them le lah.. Times flies and next tuesdae will be the 1st IPPT and i gotta miss it cos i am on light duty for a week. Haha.. but hope i can pass the 2nd test bah.. Oh.. one more thing. Deli is our FI. The indian chinese who was also a CII during my CI course. He simply sucks. But my sqmates all like being voodoo by him. Dunno why they like him so much. Argh.. i simply juz dun like him. He sucks. sorry to say that. Maybe I hearrd too much story about him in the pass le lah.. Haha.. From monday onwards, FI will take charge of us liao.. So time to die liao lah. haha.. Heng i light duty for one week cos of possible ankle sprain. Wahaha...
Thats all le bah.. Here is the paragraph that i read in the morning from friendster bulletin board. Must read lehz..
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If you're afraid to love a person because of
friendship, you have two choices, either tells
what
you feel and let the love take place or hide the
feeling under a friendship full of pretensions.
It's
hard for two people to love each other when
they
live in two different worlds...but when these two
worlds collide and become one, that's what you
call magic!
Love can never be so beautiful without
friendship...one leads to another and the
process
is irreversible...the best of lovers is the
greatest of
friends!!! I like you because you're my friend,
and
because you are my friend I care, and because
I
care, I love you. I don't love you because you
are
my friend; I love you because I do!
Sometimes I've asked myself, what would
make
me happy? To think that I have everything else,
I
get what I want... then I realized it was YOU,
too
bad 'cause it's you can't have... I can't choose
who
I'm gonna love, but I also can't just love who
chooses to love me...and you can't blame me
in
choosing to love you as much as I can't blame
you
for not learning to love me. I'm sorry if you can't
love me the way you loved the one before me,
so
I'll let you go to find him/her and hope
someday
you'll see that the one true love you're looking
for
was the one who set you free...
"How can I say goodbye to someone I never
had?
Why do tears fall for someone who was never
mine? Why is that I miss someone I was never
with and I ask why I love someone who's love
was
never mine?" Isn't it funny we're trying to catch
the
attention of the one we think we love; we hardly
notice the one we're really looking for was just
there. You don't notice them 'till they are in the
arms of someone else...
Food for thought, think of this..
Have you really cared for someone more than
you
expected?
Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of
all
the pain?
Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she
whispers someone else's name? Will you???
It's better to lose your pride with someone you
love
rather than lose that someone you love with
your
useless pride.
When you love someone, don't expect that
person
to love you back the same amount. One of you
will
be ahead, the other behind. It's either you
catch up
or the other waits. When you love, you must not
accept anything in return, for if you do, you're
not
loving but Investing. If you love, you must
prepare
to accept pain, for if you expect happiness,
you're
not loving but using... True love hears what is
not
spoken, and understands what is not
explained,
for
love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind,
but in
the heart...
Love is like standing on wet cement, the longer
you stay the harder it is to leave...and you can
never go without leaving your prints behind...
Don't
love a person like a flower, because a flower
dies
in season. Love them like a river because a
river
flows forever... Love doesn't have to have a
happy
Ending, 'cause love doesn't have to end at all.
Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it
may give you aches and pains, but if you don't
follow your heart, in the end you will cry even
more
for not giving love a chance. “Love may
leave your
heart like shattered glass, but keep in mind that
there's someone who'll be willing to endure the
pain of picking up the pieces so you could be
whole again"
The cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is to
let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch
her fall!
